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Heart to Heart

I have not been writing regularly. I intend to, but i do not. Just like i intend to work out. Just like I intend to eat only healthy food. But there are days when i overcome my laziness and start writing at 11pm in the night. And then I stop abruptly to sleep and wake up the next morning and continue writing from a cab on my way to work. Phew! That's my life. I wish I was more productive with the time i get and make more time for myself doing things i love and learning something that I have always wanted to learn. And now let's cut back to reality. I will probably continue to binge watch SNL sketches or some comedy on YouTube and realize that time flies and i still have a big, unfulfilled to-do list.

So yesterday when i noticed the cover page of my blog, i realized it was an origami heart that i made 5 years back in Japan. It was just a paper heart then. Now it has a deeper meaning. 2 years back, when my son was born, we named him Hruday. Hruday means heart in sanskrit. My husband and I had thought of a few names each for both genders. But then, when i was in the ICU after the C-Section , heavily under painkillers, when I heard i had a son, i thought of the name Hruday. Aptly our little heart.  Everyone loved the name and i feel no other name would have suited him more.

Now every time i open up this blog, i will think of my son. My other baby :) 

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