Live in the moment

Today, while putting up washed clothes to dry, I was reminded of my school days. As much as I am a happy person, there are always things I do not like to do. Instead of being unhappy about doing things I detest and cannot avoid, I look forward to the reward at the end of it. When I need to wake up early for an exam, I would look forward to the afternoon after the exam when I can have a wonderful nap. That was enough to keep me in a cheerful mood.

As much as we would love to live in the moment, life always brings to us many unwanted situations. I hate folding clothes. I wait for it to pile up high enough to catch my attention. I blast my current favourite song on my laptop. Make some sincere attempts at dancing and fail. And in 10 minutes the clothes are all in place, neatly stacked up in their respective places.

I do not enjoy waking up too early and rushing off to my office by 7.30 in the morning. I look forward to getting back home and see my son excited that I am back home after a long day.

I have realized that living in the moment is practically impossible. However, sinking in a bad moment is never good. I do visit the pit sometimes. I am not a saint. Yet, I try to hang on to the smallest moment that I can look forward to keeping my spirits up. That, to me, is the real way to live in the moment.

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