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39!

 Well, officially today is my birthday month. I am not 39 yet. I will only turn 37 in a couple of days. 

This post is titled 39, after a real tear-jerker of a K-Drama with the same title. Well, it started off as a story of the friendship of three 39-year old women, reminding me of my own friendship with my 2 close school friends. Quickly I wished it wasn't about us as one of the characters, Cha Young, was diagnosed with cancer and a clear indication that she would eventually die. 

This is where my post may get dark and you might read beyond this with caution, especially if you know me personally. I relate to Cha Young. I agree with her decision not to take treatment. I would definitely be one to arrange my own funeral, click my photo to leave behind for when I am gone. I know this is all grave and never good to discuss, but hey, this is who I am and strangely relate to. 

As the situation worsens for her, it is harder to watch. There is a conflict of whether she is really a fighter or a fleeter. I think it is brave either way and one is not better than the other. Having said that, if anyone close to me chose not to fight, I might try to convince them otherwise, but strangely when it comes to putting myself in the same situation, I don't feel that merely extending the life on earth by a couple of months by spending out all life's savings is justified. We are after all, eventually, destined to go.


 I thought hard about it. Is this because of my current state of mind or is this my actual, genuine reaction? Well, this is just me in this hypothetical world. Reality can be a stark difference. One can never predict! 


                                  (Jeon Mi-do as Jeong Cha Young in 39 - hauntingly beautiful)

Until next time, hopefully a happier post, Happy Reading! 

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