Have you ever felt happy when you have been extremely busy both at home and work and that feeling when you plop on the bed at the end of the night is unbeatable ! I have realized that as much as I enjoy the mindless scrolling or binge watching, I love a good day's work. Now I have split it into micro tasks over multiple days to accomplish something without feeling burnt out ! Two birds in one stone. Satisfaction over completion of a task and satisfaction of a clean home, organized shelves, completed chores.
The other fact that i have observed it is that by merely listing out all the tasks at hand, I have been able to accomplish a lot more than I could have ever imagined. I love making lists, but the mundane chores never made it to my elite lists sheets. Earlier this year, I got into the habit of writing down to-dos on a diary and keeping that sheet visible to all. My better half and I are diligent in ticking stuff off and even more diligent in adding some of those adhoc tasks post completion and checking them off as well.
I have completed my Tanjore painting after a year and a half and I am proud of it. While i started this sentence, I was writing that it was not perfect but I was proud. Backspaced all of that promptly because I have learned that I need not justify the work or standard of it or set unrealistic benchmarks and then call it that inspite of it all, I am happy, because I do not have to. Completing that painting made me happy. That's all. Whether it was beautiful or had flaws, it did not matter to me as much as it mattered to me for completing it.
I have used that lesson in everything that I do now. I wrote one assignment for a course from the hospital while my father in law was admitted there. I was mighty proud of the fact that I managed to do it even in those circumstances. Is that my best work. is it a top work, is it nicely done, is it complete ? NO self doubt. I did it. That is all. Is this the best blog, is this something people will read, is this worth my time ? Nope, I shall not delve into that. I am happiest when I write. I am happiest when I do things, I am happiest when I am trying different things, I am happiest when I am not idling for a long period of time. I am happiest when I let go off pressures that build up in my head. #NotAI
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