The first day of the last month of the year 2025 is here! What a year this has been! When we started the year, GenAI had not shot up in fame yet. We were still writing a lot on our own, yes, I did stop posting here as frequently as I did earlier too! I am an enthusiastic user of all things AI, but that has also prompted me, ironically, to start writing once again. I am more inclined to write for fun. I am more incentivized to write original stuff to stay close to my core self.
I used to write for the fun of it. I used to write because I loved it. I still do, unfortunately to my work colleagues and clients only. Well, I do write up interesting prompts too and get very original outcomes as well. There's just something about writing that is liberating. For the last 5 years, I have been writing in my journals. I have been able to express emotions which I cannot do on an online platform. I have poured out my feelings of betrayal and abandonment as much as my joys and achievements. I have kept all of them close to my chest, maybe just on a paper and I do have a lot more that I cannot even do that.
Pen and paper feel a lot more personal and I do not feel that I am baring all my thoughts out in the world. Also now it is scarier as anyone with intent, can access anything that I have put out in the internet. I fear running for a public post purely because of the fear of all my deep, dark secrets coming out. Not that it will be exciting or interesting or embarassing, just that someone CAN is scary.
I can always burn down my paper journals, or shred them to pieces and mix them up and discard them in batches(yes, I am detailed that way!). Once I am on the internet, it is eternal. There is more than enough garbage around here, and yet, my garbage can be accessed. So yea, I want to write more and I do also want to challenge myself to allow my vulnerabilities and joys to be out in the open. On a daily basis, I have probably 5 people in my family and friends circle who would even bother to read so many words. So my December challenge is to write something here every day for the next 31 days, until I start the new year, where I will decide a different frequency, depending on how successful I am at writing here in my 31 days of December challenge. You'll see!
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My Father-in-law was not the typical FIL who was distant and would not interact with his daughter-in-law. Well, initially he was like that and then he warmed up to my presence and opened up to me. Over the last few years, as we spent a lot of time together, as we were all living in the same home, he became my close friend, mentor, guide and my biggest cheerleader. He was born in Shimoga, grew up in Amrutur with his aunt, started his family in Sagara and eventually retired into Bangalore. 80+ years, he has had the most enviable life. Don't mistake it for a rosy life or a life with no issues or problems! He was one among 11 - 6 boys and 5 girls. He was the 2nd child and as his mother had more children, she needed help raising the kids and so she reached out to her sister in law to take care of him in Amruthur - a farmland. He grew up under the care of his aunt and love from his cousins, who were all girls. He would eat fresh food from the abundance of the farm and also drink milk so...
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